Thinks i don’t like about me!> im freaky
> i get attached very easily
> constant mood changes
> mostly feeling negative
> very awkward especially in hangout servers
> deep and kinda cracky voice (i might be also sounding strange due to my hispanic accent since english is not my native language)
> more in extra info - questions & answers

Questions & AnswersWhy i am an atheistic satanist?Before explaining i would like to refresh your mind by letting you know that not everything that starts by or contains ‘’Satan’’ means it’s evil or demonic-worshipping. So no, im not evil, and im not an anti-christ supporter.
We, the satanists of all types (because yeah, there are different types of satanism, in my case is atheistic satanism) are very calm and mostly don't look for problems. Please inform yourself before speaking or believing, especially if its involved in religion. Don’t fall into the mediatic manipulation!I decided to become an atheistic satanist because in my truth i don’t find any celestial or superior being. I believe in science and biology because it’s the answer that makes more sense to me.Now you probably might be asking, Why do you consider yourself an atheistic satanist, if you don’t believe in any being?
There is no need to always believe in a ‘God’ or a superior being to follow their religion! I use Satan as a symbol of freedom, but i do not believe in it’s existence. You are your God and you respect who they respect you.Why i don’t show off my actual name on social media.Social media is a dangerous place if you aren’t responsible with yourself and meet the wrong people. I had to live both due to my ‘free time (check hobbies to understand)’ and since then i never ever felt fully safe while opening social media (especially Discord) even if i was, so i decided to call myself Blade, AJ or Jane Doe which is a name that is given to the females who don’t have name (mostly corpses) or rather have it anonymous like i do, in cases of male it would be John Doe but you can use any one you like!Why do i dislike Hollywood Movies?I don’t like Hollywood Movies in general because when it comes to characters of other races that aren’t white (asian race, black race, native American race, …) they somehow usually experience a different or special treatment by the others for how they are, in a big quantity of these cases the characters face at least once a racist ‘joke’ or attack. Also let’s not forget the connection Hollywood has with J#ffrey E#stein.Extra infoMy honest and pure opinion on Christianism (most popular religion in the present)Im going to make this explanation as much respectful as possible.
For me, Christianism is a normalized cult with the principal objective to control and manipulate people like puppets (which, apparently, has gone successful. I might be wrong, but some people actually make it look like it's a cult and i know what i am saying because i was a christian all my life, but again, its my opinion). And the truth is, that religion in general has the big blame for us going backwards, as society and as humanity. It doesn't matter if you're a christian or not, you have to accept it.
Other religions (mostly Christianism) are the principal responsibles to people’s brainwash, 'Spreading the Gospel' in most social media (TikTok comments, YouTube advertisements, ...) (i personally consider it as forcing religion and kind of disrespectful because not everybody in this world is a christian) and making people hate on other religions (for example, Satanism) without even looking deeper into the history. Broken relationships and friendships, wars that k#lled a lot of lives of innocent people, all because of some people's belief not being the same as others. Nowadays, you can easily get considered an enemie or a bad person just because of your religion / beliefs. Me myself, i can't even be open about my truth or explaining this in public because im probably going to get attacked.Even after all this information, if you consider yourself a christian, i will still respect you (if you respect me as well of course).Social media & insecuritiesMost of you readers probably read my about me, so i believe i can open myself a little bit more to you!As you all sweethearts know, i have depression, everybody thinks its because of my father and sister's passing, but apart from that, i've been betrayed by my own self multiple times, which made me grow an insane hate and disgust towards myself, both personally and physically.
Even though, anyone would see me or talk to me for a while and tell me:- ''You don't seem to be a horrible person like you claim to be!''But in my eyes, i do. And i am the one who has the wand, so as long as i see it, i believe i am.Beauty is everything in the present, believe it or not. Size, hair, and even race. And i don't want to sound racist but both pretty and white privilege exists, even if i don't look like it, i am mixed / biracial and in my 18 years of life, i already experienced a lot of traumatizing situations that actually make me think about any remaining human hope.- ''I don't look for good looks! I look for good personalities!''-''I love chubby girls so bad, i want one.''and way more bullsh#t.Because at this point, we should all know and accept that its actually all based on looks and not on ''kind souls''. And when they referring to chubby girls, they mean oversized girls with insane hourglass curves, as if every chubby girl actually looked like that.Thanks to social media, beauty standards got to a point where basically every 2 of 15-30 girls can actually fit in them without the need of spending hours using makeup and months of waist training, and when it comes to a girl posting herself on social media but doesn't follow the standards, she gets attacked and / or cyberbullied. Also reminder that black women automatically can't follow the standards because of being darker, and it's not me, its social media.So yes, it is hard.It's hard to fit in, it's hard to try and calm yourself when you see the pretty girls on TikTok and Pinterest getting thousands or even millions of likes by just posing again, knowing damn well that one of them could have been you.
But no, you weren't born for that, you were born to sit at the corner of the classroom, watching the rest of your mates have fun and interact with eachother, knowing you couldn't do that, even if you craved it and worked for it with all your heart, for so long.So of course im going to compare to them, of course im going to stare at them through the screen, with pure jealousy and sadness, all that to just post a:-''You're so prettyyyyyy - Sent 1s ago''...I just want to fit in.But if i know i shouldn't post myself on social media to be complimented, because i know i will probably get more hated than complimented, then why do i still crave for it so much? It's just like love, if i used to think love wasn't for me, then why was i still quietly and desperately looking for it?I don't know.But i know that if i don't get this giant flame from my inside, it's going to be eating me and killing me, which is already doing but im trying, i tried everything, cutecore, alternative, i felt myself comfortable in the gothic lifestyle, not catfishing as it, i did join goth and i am still learning about goth, both looks and especially history and rules. Even though i still feel like i don't belong anywhere, im trying. But again, it's hard.

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